ottawa

What I’m trying to say is change starts inside of you and if you’re not paying attention, you will miss it. The more you miss, the more bogged down you will become.

This is my experience.

I know I am on the right path, but the details matter.

There are ways of being that no longer serve: subterranean habits that began way before I was born. Things I picked up on because that was the reality I stumbled into. There’s no one blame. Only work to do.

I will keep building my palace. Like the Egyptians. Moving 1000 ton blocks of stone. Stacking until pyramid structures erect and caluclations triangulate.

I cannot look at things 2-dimensionally anymore. Like trying to jump without planting your feet. Awkwardly twisting in the air and not quite making it as far as you anticipated. Rushing got me no where.

And now I’m on the brink of completing this journey. A physical feat for sure, but far more spiritual.

My right achilles tendon hurts and I don’t know if I should push through and ride in the rain tomorrow.

The motivation is it’s halloween and I want to see you.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned on this trip it’s that this love runs far deeper than any of my thoughts have access to. So deep that it is best kept a secret.

You are the sparkplug and skyfull of stars.

Welcome to prawjeckt –

for my final act I will bike 185km in the pouring rain.

Thank you David and Barb for the hospitality in Ottawa.