Seemingly all at once, I burnt out and woke up. In a state of epiphanic panic there began a realization that my pipes are clogged. That my foundation is cracked; there is a hole in this heart and nothing to hide behind. I clamber to the edge of my bed and press soles into matt. …
As the winter starts to kick in, I’m thinking more and more about what it means to live in harmony with the seasons. It’s 6PM on a Friday and I’m fucking tired. The sun set an hour and a half ago – and though the sreet is lit and the bike co-op is calling me, …
Bigger reflections the last few days as the new year has turned. Looking back and looking forward; looking up at the sky walking down the street. This past year, the people I met and the interactions that took place make me feel boundless. Like where’d my boundaries go? Failure and perservearance – however trite – …
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Can’t crack you. Like a statue. Face fixed and bounces off me. We are getting nowhere quickly; only slowly. Only slowly. All tangled. Wanted this so bad for so long. Only slowly, kid. Easy off the gas. Slowly kid. This started as something persuasive, but now I’ll take it slowly. Roots stuck in the floor …
The craziest shit. The universe is really on your side. Biking down the street, on the way to go get a new phone and my iPhone 11 slipped out of my pocket and landed somewhere in the blizzard. It’s gone. Pre-emptive in some ways, but was on the way out anyway. Right in the middle. …
What I’m trying to say is change starts inside of you and if you’re not paying attention, you will miss it. The more you miss, the more bogged down you will become. This is my experience. I know I am on the right path, but the details matter. There are ways of being that no …
175km down! Wild ride. Took me 12 hours of biking into the night. Yesterday, the primary challenge came in the form of terrain: super rocky. This durastically slowed me down and crushed the flow of my ride. Kind of a metaphor for this trip: I knew the terrain was going to slow me down, but …
I want comfort. I want time to wonder. Realizing that nothing can make me change – I watch. My feet fall onto the earth. (ee) Relax, I never decided. Long days of biking and being in new places. Trees cracked, fell and grew again. It has never been about what I’m doing, but how I’m …
The roads are getting longer. Physical and emotional fatigue is setting in. It would be so easy to find comfort in things that would only immidiatley satisfy me – I am tempted. Jealousy, alienation, pride and self-centeredness. Tripping, but my body demands my attention. A sharp pain in my right knee is slowing me down. …